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First, there’s a hungry chick setting fire to the rain. Then, there’s a girl giant who has her feet on the ground but her head in the clouds. Oh, and she’s on fire. Now, we’re putting our hands up in the air because suck it, ceiling.

Worst.Lyrics.Ever.

Love

"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place."

 - Kurt Vonnegut

Awkward is Awkward

I despise bras. It especially seems pointless to have to put on a bra under a big bulky sweatshirt. But, I do it because what if it’s that one time when there’s a fluke robbery/hostage situation and they shout “Everyone empty your pockets and strip down!” and I’m “yeah … no.”

Awkward.

You and I

Some of the best conversations I've ever had with you are the ones in my head, with words that will never actually be said.

Yugen

"It’s not that we are better than the universe, we are part of the universe. We are in the universe and the universe is in us." - Neil deGrasse Tyson

I Am Legend

My dogs wink at me sometimes, and I always wink back. You know, in case it's a code or something.

Side story : The moment when I saw someone wink with one eye, then the other, totally changed my life. I can't recall exactly how old I was, but I'm guessing I was maybe 5? 

I devoted several days to perfecting the double wink and when I did, I was so proud of myself and felt like I was invincible and could do anything.

I'm pretty sure it was not long after this that I accidentally bent a spoon for the first time.  It was at that point I may or may not have also believed that I quite possibly had super powers.

I was a silly kid with an incredible imagination that could not be contained and dreams that could not be restrained. It saddens me that I've lost so much of that optimism and youthful hope. I suppose that happens as we get older. Truth be told, I feel rather defeated and tired so many days and it would be so nice to re-capture that feeling of invincibility, if only for a moment.

You're One of Us!

For about ten years, I wore this gold cross around my neck. It was on a really thin and delicate gold chain & the upside down T itself was small, so it was actually very simple yet pretty. It had originally belonged to my paternal grandmother and when she passed, I started wearing it. I guess it was my way of trying to keep a part of her with me at all times.

I never took it off and just knew that it was going to get caught in my hair during a shower and get lost, but it never did. My mom would tell me that I didn't need to worry because God would take care of it ...

I grew up. I eventually stopped wearing the necklace. I stopped believing the lies. 

It used to be that when I was a child and met someone who also was sporting a cross/crucifix, I would feel comfort. It was like "Hey, you're ok. We belong to the same club!"

When I see someone nowadays with a cross around their neck, what I hear in my head is "Proceed with caution."

There is no animosity. Yet, there also is no comfort.